Friday, June 18, 2010
Fears and Talking to Myself
silent ongoing conversation within self today
me: Bah. So What are you so afraid of?
also me: I don't know, I guess I am just nuts
me: Probably that wacko nightmare last night, don't worry about it, you worked 7 years in Retail this craft show will be like old hat.
also me: but what if someone tries to haggle my prices down?
me: you politely decline
also me: I hope it storms and we get to just leave early and let it be a bust and I can blame it on the weather.
me: that's the spirit. way to be positive, Jen.
also me: I don't think I want to do craft shows.
me: you will get through this one and feel really foolish being so worried about nothing all day like this
also me: I'm not going to sell anything. I just know no one is going to like my stuff.
me: you know people like your stuff. If you don't do well in Lancaster, it won't be a big surprise, but you'll try another venue next time.
also me: Next time?! if It is a bust I will be so ruined. I'll just close up shop and give up.
THIS is why I have had an Etsy shop for over a year, and have not attempted to sell my stuff anywhere on consignment and have thought of an excuse as to why I cannot do this craft show or that one...over and over.
So, last night one of my daughter's peed on the floor. No one would fess up. It drove me nuts for several hours last night...sleuthing the pee situation, trying to detective my way to know which one did it...I could care less about the actual pee, it took minutes to clean up, but the fact that neither of them would say they did it just bugs me so much
So I decided I'll go ahead and publicly fess up.
NO! I did not pee on the floor!
...but Am I any different? I mean, by not being honest with myself.
Tomorrow is my first craft show. I am having internal battles pretty much driven, no 100% driven by insecurity.
I have have made Hair accessories for a long time, well over a year. I am finally getting out of my house and going to display them publicly. Bout time! I have all intentions of sending a box of items to the Hodge Podgery next week after I see how much I sell at this show
(also me: if anything...)
So does every crafter/artist/maker have internal battles all the time? If you do, I'd love you to confess im my comments. If you don't why don't you take the opportunity to tell me what a goof I am being?
Also, if you know which kid peed on the floor DO TELL!
....I joke. I am honestly over that....